Have you ever had to make a decision that affected not only the direction of your life, but of others’ lives as well? Did you have as much information as you needed to make that decision? Did you have to guess, or take a leap of faith?
I want more than anything to please God, to do what he wants me to do, what he made me to do. So why doesn’t he give me explicit directions? Why does he ask me to make decisions in the dark? Wouldn’t it be a lot easier and less error prone if he just spoke from heaven, “On June 23rd, I want you to go here and do this”?
I’m coming to think he wants me to grow to the point where I can operate outside of rational processes. He breathed the breath of life into my spirit for a reason. Yes, I have a mind, and yes, it is a powerful, useful thing. I’m thankful for the gift of intellect, and it’s not my intention to bash it. But… God’s thoughts are so much higher that my meager attempts to rationalize and plan and foresee must look pretty silly to him. I think this is one reason he lights our spirits on fire, so that we can understand him (and therefore work with him and communicate with him) on a plane higher than human reason.
So the challenge now is to be sensitive to the little spiritual clues lying about: an odd thing an acquaintance said recently, old prophecies spoken over my life long ago, a dream a friend had about me, a confluence of “circumstances” that tend to point … where?
Lord, give me wisdom to understand your design for my life, especially when I can’t see the forest for the trees. And give me the faith to step out and make tough decisions even when I don’t know what will happen and can’t explain it to others.
